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Once and for All by Sarah Dessen This is the perfect romantic summer read. It's lovely inside and out. I received a copy of this book yesterday morning and. Check with your local Library to see if they have an app that you can borrow books from or if they have a partnership with an app that does so. Just Listen by Sarah Dessen. CHAPTER ONE to jobs, talking business with Lindy on the phone and gathering pictures to update our books. But when.
He practiced yoga, visited his grandmother in her rest home every other Sunday, and had a pen pal from Nigeria he'd been corresponding with since he was eight years old.
Anything he did, he did well. A lot of people might find this annoying, even loathsome.
But not me. He was just what I needed. I had known this from the first day we met, in English class sophomore year. We'd been put into groups to do an assignment onMacbeth , me and Jason and a girl named Amy Richmond who, after we pulled our desks together, promptly announced she was "no good at this Shakespeare crap" and put her head down on her backpack.
A second later, she was sound asleep. Jason just looked at her. Words weren't coming to me well; in fact I had trouble even recognizing them sometimes, entire sentences seeming like they were another language, or backwards, as my eyes moved across them. Just printing my own name on the top of a page a few days previously, I'd second-guessed the letters and their order, not even sure of that anymore. So of courseMacbeth had totally mystified me.
I'd spent the entire weekend struggling with the antiquated language and weird names of the characters, unable to even figure out the most basic aspects of the story. Nope, I thought. Lucky for me, Jason, who was not about to leave his grade in someone else's hands, was used to taking control of group work. So he opened his notebook to a clean page, pulled out a pen, and uncapped it. Then we can figure out what to write about. All around us I could hear our classmates chattering, the tired voice of our English teacher, Mr.
Sonnenberg, telling us again to please settle down. Jason skipped down a few lines on his page. Murder , I watched him write. His handwriting was clean, block-style, and he moved across the page quickly.
It seemed like he could go on forever, but then he stopped and looked at me.
I glanced back down at my book, as if somehow, the words there would suddenly form together into something coherent. I could feel Jason looking at me, not unkindly, just waiting for me to contribute.
I swallowed, then started over. But Jason surprised me, putting down his pen. It's totally confusing. The key to really understanding is to start with the prophecy about what's going to happen… see, here…" He started flipping pages in his book, still talking, and pointed out a passage to me. Then he read it aloud, and as his finger moved across the words it was like he changed them, magic, and suddenly they made sense.
And I felt comfort. All I'd wanted for so long was for someone to explain everything that had happened to me in this same way. To label it neatly on a page: this leads to this leads to this. I knew, deep down, it was more complicated than that, but watching Jason, I was hopeful. He took the mess that wasMacbeth and fixed it, and I had to wonder if he might, in some small way, be able to do the same for me.
So I moved myself closer to him, and I'd been there ever since. Now, he zipped up his laptop case and put it on the bed with the rest of his stuff. Talbot got out, opened the trunk, and he and Jason took a few minutes getting everything situated. As I got in the backseat and put on my seatbelt, Mrs. Talbot turned around and smiled at me.
She was a botanist, her husband a chemist, both of them professors. They were so scholarly that every time I saw either of them without a book in their hands they looked weird to me, as if they were missing their noses, or their elbows. I tried not to think about this as she said, "So, Macy.
What are you going to do until August without Jason? I was working at the library, taking over Jason's job at the information desk, but other than that, the next eight weeks were just looming ahead, empty.
While I had a few friends from student council, most had gone away for the summer themselves, to Europe or camp. To be honest, Jason's and my relationship was pretty time consuming: between yoga classes and student government stuff, not to mention all the causes we dealt with, there just hadn't been much time for anyone else. Besides, Jason got easily frustrated with people, so I'd been hesitant to invite new people out with us.
If they were slow, or lazy in any way, he lost patience fast, and it was just easier to hang out with him, or with his friends, who could keep up with him.
I'd never really thought about this as a bad thing, actually. It was just how we were. On the way to the airport, Jason and his dad discussed some elections that had just happened in Europe; his mom fretted about construction traffic; and I sat there, looking at the inch between Jason's knee and mine and wondering why I didn't try to move closer to him.
This wasn't new. He hadn't even kissed me until our third date, and now, after a year and a half, we still hadn't discussed going all the way. At the time we met, someone just hugging me still felt like too much to bear. I didn't want anyone to get too close. So this had been all I wanted, a boy who understood how I felt. Now, though, I sometimes wished for more.
At the airport, we said good-bye at the gate. His parents hugged him, then discreetly walked across the waiting room to stand at the window there, looking out at the runway and the big stretch of blue sky that hung over it.
I put my arms around Jason, breathing in his smell—sport stick deodorant and acne cleanser—deeply, so I'd get enough to last me awhile. He kissed me on the forehead. Then, quickly, so quickly I didn't even have time to react, on the lips. As they called his flight and he disappeared down the hallway to the plane, I stood with the Talbots and watched him go, feeling a tug in my chest. It was going to be a long summer.
I'd wanted a real kiss, something to remember, but I'd long ago learned not to be picky in farewells. They weren't guaranteed or promised. You were lucky, more than blessed, if you got a goodbye at all. My dad died. And I was there. This was how people knew me. Not as Macy Queen, daughter of Deborah, who built pretty houses in brand new cul-de-sacs.
Or as sister of Caroline, who'd had just about the most beautiful wedding anyone had ever seen at the Lakeview Inn the previous summer. Not even as the one-time holder of the record for the fifty-yard dash, middle school division.
I was Macy Queen, who'd woken up the day after Christmas and gone outside to see her father splayed out at the end of the road, a stranger pumping away at his broad chest. I saw my dad die. That was who I was now.
When people first heard this, or saw me and remembered it, they always made that face. The one with the sad look, accompanied by the cock of the head to the side and the softening of the chin—oh my goodness, you poor thing.
While it was usually well intentioned, to me it was just a reaction of muscles and tendons that meant nothing. Nothing at all. I hated that face. I saw it everywhere. The first time was at the hospital. I was sitting in a plastic chair by the drink machine when my mother walked out of the small waiting room, the one off the main one. I already knew this was where they took people to tell them the really bad news: that their wait was over, their person was dead.
In fact, I'd just watched another family make this progression, the ten or so steps and the turn of a corner, crossing over from hopeful to hopeless. As my mother—now the latter—came toward me, I knew. And behind her there was this plump nurse holding a chart, and she saw me standing there in my track pants and baggy sweatshirt, my old smelly running shoes, and she made the face.
Oh, poor dear. Then though, I had no idea how it would follow me. I saw The Face at the funeral, everywhere. It was the common mask on the people clumped on the steps, sitting quietly murmuring in the pews, shooting me sideways looks that I could feel, even as I kept my head down, my eyes on the solid black of my tights, the scuffs on my shoe. Beside me, my sister Caroline sobbed: through the service, as we walked down the aisle, in the limo, at the cemetery, at the reception afterward.
She cried so much it seemed wrong for me to, even if I could have. For anyone else to join in was just overkill. I hated that I was in this situation, I hated that my dad was gone, I hated that I'd been lazy and sleepy and had waved him off when he'd come into my room that morning, wearing his smelly Waccamaw 5K shirt, leaning down to my ear to whisper,Macy, wake up.
I'll give you a head start. Come on, you know the first few steps are the hardest part. I hated that it had been not two or three but five minutes later that I changed my mind, getting up to dig out my track pants and lace my shoes. I hated that I wasn't faster on those three-tenths of a mile, that by the time I got to him he was already gone, unable to hear my voice, see my face, so that I could say all the things I wanted to.
I might have been the girl whose dad died, the girl who was there, and everyone might have known it. But the fact that I was angry and scared, that was my secret to keep. They didn't get to have that, too. It was all mine. As soon as I leaned over and saw the return address, I knew what it was. In the dining room, I could see fliers stacked around several floral arrangements, everything all set for the cocktail reception my mother was hosting that night.
The newest phase of her neighborhood, luxury townhouses, was just starting construction, and she had sales to make.
Which meant she was in full-out schmooze mode, a fact made clear by the sign over the mantel featuring her smiling face and her slogan: Queen Homes —Let Us Build Your Castle. I put the box on the kitchen island, right in the center, then walked to the fridge and poured myself a glass of orange juice.
I drank all of it down, rinsed the cup, and put it in the dishwasher. But it didn't matter how I busied myself. The entire time, I was aware of the box perched there waiting for me. There was nothing to do but just get it over with. I pulled a pair of scissors out of the island drawer, then drew them across the top of the box, splitting the line of tight brown packing tape. The return address, like all the others, was Waterville, Maine.
Dear Mr. Queen, As one of our most valued EZ Products customers, please find enclosed our latest innovation for your perusal. We feel assured that you'll find it will become as important and time-saving a part of your daily life as the many other products you've downloadd from us over the years. If, however, for some reason you're not completely satisfied, return it within thirty days and your account will not be charged.
Thank you again for your patronage. If you have any questions, please feel free to contact our friendly customer service staff at the number below. It's for people like you that we work to make daily life better, more productive, and most of all, easy.
It's not just a name: it's a promise. Most cordially, Walter F. It had two pictures on the front. In the first one, a woman was standing at a kitchen counter with about twenty rolls of tinfoil and waxed paper stacked up in front of her. She had a frustrated expression on her face, like she was about two breaths away from some sort of breakdown. In the picture beside it, the woman was at the same counter. Gone were the boxes, replaced instead by a plastic console that was attached to the wall.
From it, she was pulling some plastic wrap, now sporting the beatific look usually associated with madonnas or people on heavy medication.
Are you tired of dealing with the mess of so many kinds of foil and wrap? Sick of fumbling through messy drawers or cabinets? Get the Neat Wrap and you'll have what you need within easy reach.
It's all there, right at your fingertips! I put the box down, running my finger over the edge. It's funny what it takes to miss someone. A packed funeral, endless sympathy cards, a reception full of murmuring voices, I could handle. But every time a box came from Maine, it broke my heart.
My dad loved this stuff: he was a sucker for anything that claimed to make life simpler. This, mixed with a tendency to insomnia, was a lethal combination. He'd be downstairs, going over contracts or firing off emails late into the night, with the TV on in the background, and then an infomercial would come on.
He'd be sucked in immediately, first by the happy, forced banter between the host and the gadget designer, then by the demonstration, followed by the bonus gifts, just for ordering Right Now, by which point he was already digging out his credit card with one hand as he dialed with the other.
Never mind that the rest of us had long ago soured on EZ Products: my father was not dissuaded by our cynicism. He loved thepotential , the possibility that there, in his eager hands, was the answer to one of life's questions.
Not "Why are we here? But if the question was, "Does there exist a toothbrush that also functions as a mouthwash dispenser? Oh, yes. That was the thing about my dad. He could make anything seem like a good time. I mean, most people wouldn't even think you could come up with something like this! My sister, the drama queen, could not even work up a good fake smile, instead just shaking her head and saying, "Oh, Dad, why do you download all that crap, anyway?
She even tolerated the tissue dispenser he installed on the visor of her BMW Never risk an accident reaching for a Kleenex again! When my dad died, we all reacted in different ways. My sister seemed to take on our cumulative emotional reaction: she cried so much she seemed to be shriveling right in front of our eyes.
I sat quiet, silent, angry, refusing to grieve, because it seemed like to do so would be giving everyone what they wanted. My mother began to organize. Two days after the funeral, she was moving through the house with a buzzing intensity, the energy coming off of her palpable enough to set your teeth chattering. I stood in my bedroom door, watching as she ripped through our linen closet, tossing out all the nubby washcloths and old twin sheets that fit beds we'd long ago given away.
Nothing was safe. I came home from school one day to find that my closet had been organized, rifled through, clothes I hadn't worn in a while just gone. It was becoming clear to me that I shouldn't bother to get too attached to anything. Turn your back and you lose it. Just like that. The EZ stuff was among the last to go.
On a Saturday morning, about a week after the funeral, she was up at six a. By nine, she'd emptied out most of the garage: the old treadmill, lawn chairs, and boxes of never-used Christmas ornaments.
As much as I'd been worried about her as she went on this tear, I was even more concerned about what would happen when she was all done, and the only mess left was us. I walked across the grass to the driveway, sidestepping a stack of unopened paint cans. A pink bike with a white seat, a broken plastic sled, some life jackets from the boat we'd sold years ago.
None of it meant anything, and all of it was important. I had no idea what to take. Then I saw the EZ box. At the top, balled up and stuffed in the corner, was the self-heating hand towel my dad had considered a Miracle of Science only a few weeks earlier. I picked it up carefully, squeezing the thin fabric between my fingers. A giraffe I vaguely remembered as belonging to my sister was poking out the top. It's junk. The Goodwill guys showed up then, beeping the horn as they pulled into the driveway.
My mother waved them in, then walked over to point out the various piles. As they conferred, I wondered how many times a day they went to people's houses to take things away—if it was different when it was after a death, or if junk was junk, and they couldn't even tell. The two guys went over to the treadmill, each of them picking up an end. They were making a last trip for the Christmas tree when one of them, a shorter guy with red hair, nodded toward the box at my feet.
I was about to tell him yes. Then I looked down at the towel and the box with all the other crap in it, and remembered how excited my dad was when each of them arrived, how I could always hear him coming down the hallway, pausing by the dining room, the den, the kitchen, just looking for someone to share his new discovery with.
I was always so happy when it was me. There was a panel above the top shelf that opened up into the attic, and I slid it open and pushed the box into the darkness. With my dad gone, we had assumed our relationship with EZ Products was over.
When my mother called to complain, the customer service person apologized profusely. Because of my father's high downloading volume, she explained, he had been bumped up to Gold Circle level, which meant that he received a new product every month to peruse, no obligation to download.
They'd take him off the list, absolutely, no problem. But still the stuff kept coming, every month, just like clockwork, even after we canceled the credit card they had on file. I had my own theory on this, one I shared, like so much else, with no one.
My dad had died the day after Christmas, when all the gifts had already been put into use or away. He'd given my mom a diamond bracelet, my sister a mountain bike, but when it was my turn, he'd given me a sweater, a couple of CDs, and an I. More to come , it had said, and he'd nodded as I read the words, reassuring me.
I would love it, because my dad justknew me, knew what made me happy. My mother claimed that when I was little I cried anytime my dad was out of my sight, that I was often inconsolable if anyone but he made my favorite meal, the bright orange macaroni-and-cheese mix they sold at the grocery store three for a dollar.
But it was more than just emotional stuff. Sometimes, I swear, it was like we were on the same wavelength. Even that last day, when he'd given up trying to rouse me from bed, I'd sat up those five minutes later as if something had summoned me. Maybe, by then, his chest was already hurting. I'd never know. In those first few days after he was gone, I kept thinking back to that I.
And even though I was pretty sure it wasn't an EZ Product, it felt strangely soothing when the things from Waterville, Maine, kept arriving, as though some part of him was still reaching out to me, keeping his promise.
So each time my mother tossed the boxes, I'd fish them out and bring them upstairs to add to my collection. I never used any of the products, choosing instead to just believe the breathless claims on the boxes. There were a lot of ways to remember my dad. But I thought he would have especially liked that. Chapter Two My mother had called me once "Macy, honey, people are starting to arrive" and then twice "Macy? No matter how many times I swiped at it with my comb, it still didn't look right.
Once, I didn't care so much about appearances. I had blonde hair that got lighter in the summer time, slightly green if I swam too much, which didn't bother me since I was a total track rat, the kind of girl to whom the word hairstyle was defined as always having a ponytail elastic on her wrist.
I'd never cared about how my body or I looked—what mattered was what it could do and how fast it could go. But part of my new perfect act was my appearance.
If I wanted people to see me as calm and collected, together, I had to look the part. It took work. Now, my hair had to be just right, lying flat in all the right places. If my skin was not cooperating, I bargained with it, applying concealer and a slight layer of foundation, smoothing out all the red marks and dark circles. I could spend a full half hour getting the shadowing just right on my eyes, curling and recurling my eyelashes, making sure each was lifted and separated as the mascara wand moved over them, darkening, thickening.
I moisturized. I flossed. I stood up straight. I was fine. I pulled the comb through my hair, then stepped back from the mirror, letting it fall into the part again.
Finally: perfect. And just in time. When I came downstairs, my mother was standing by the door, greeting a couple who was just coming in with her selling smile: confident but not off-putting, welcoming but not kiss-ass. Like me, my mother put great stock in her appearance. In real estate, as in high school, it could make or break you. My mother always had these cocktail parties when she needed to sell, believing the best way to assure people she could build their dream house was to show off her own.
It was a good gimmick, even if it did mean having strangers traipsing through our downstairs. And if it looks like we're running low on brochures, go out and get another box from the garage.
Please come in. I'm so glad you could make it! But part of selling was treating everyone like a familiar face. Did you see that all the units come with two-car garages? You know, a lot of people don't even realize how much difference a heated garage can make. But when you had to do something, you had to do it.
And eventually, if you were lucky, you did it well. Queen Homes, which my dad had started right out of college as a one-man trim carpenter operation, already had a good business reputation when he met my mother. Actually, he hired her. She was fresh out of college with an accounting degree, and his finances were a shambles. She'd come in, waded through his paperwork and receipts many of which were on bar napkins and matchbooks , handled a close call with the IRS he'd "forgotten" about his taxes a few years earlier , and gotten him into the black again.
Somewhere in the midst of all of it, they fell in love. They were the perfect business team: he was all charm and fun and everyone's favorite guy to download a beer. My mother was happy busying herself with file folders and The Bigger Picture. Together, they were unstoppable. Wildflower Ridge, our neighborhood, had been my mother's vision.
They'd done small subdivisions and spec houses, but this would be an entire neighborhood, with houses and townhouses and apartments, a little business district, everything all enclosed and fitted around a common green space. A return to communities, my mother had said. The wave of the future. My dad wasn't sold at first. But he was getting older, and his body was tired. This way he could move into a supervisory position and let someone else swing the hammers.
So he agreed. Two months later, they were breaking ground on the first house: ours. They worked in tandem, my parents, meeting potential clients at the model home. My dad would run through the basic spiel, tweaking it depending on what sort of people they were: he played up his Southern charm for Northerners, talked NASCAR and barbeque with locals. He was knowledgeable, trustworthy. Of course you wanted him to build your house. Hell, you wanted him to be your best friend.
Then, the hard selling done, my mom would move in with the technical stuff like covenants, specifications, and prices.
The houses sold like crazy. It was everything my mother said it would be. Until it wasn't. I knew she blamed herself for his death, thought that maybe it was the added stress of Wildflower Ridge that taxed my dad's heart, and if she hadn't pushed him to expand so much everything would have been different.
This was our common ground, the secret we shared but never spoke aloud. I should have been with him; she should have left him alone. Shoulda, coulda, woulda. It's so easy in the past tense.
But here in the present, my mother and I had no choice but to move ahead. We worked hard, me at school, her at outselling all the other builders. We parted our hair cleanly and stood up straight, greeting company—and the world—with the smiles we practiced in the quiet of our now-too-big dream house full of mirrors that showed the smiles back. But under it all, our grief remained. Sometimes she took more of it, sometimes I did. But always, it was there.
I'd just finished directing an irate woman with a red-wine stain on her shirt to the powder room—one of the catering staff had apparently bumped into her, splashing her cabernet across her outfit—when I noticed the stack of fliers on the foyer table was looking a bit low. Grateful for any excuse to escape, I slipped outside.
I went down the front walk, cutting around the caterer's van in the driveway. The sun had just gone down, the sky pink and orange behind the line of trees that separated us from the apartments one phase over. Summer was just starting. Once that had meant early track practice and long afternoons at the pool perfecting my backflip. This summer, though, I was working. Patrons of the Lakeview Branch had gotten accustomed to him doing everything from finding that obscure book on Catherine the Great to fixing the library computers when they crashed.
They loved him for the same reason I did: he had all the answers. He also had a cult following, particular-ly among his co-workers, who were both girls and both brilliant. They'd never taken kindly to me as Jason's girlfriend, seeing as how, in their eyes, I wasn't even close to their intellectual level, much less his.
I'd had a feeling that their acceptance of me as a sudden co-worker wouldn't be much warmer, and I was right. During my training, they snickered as he taught me the intricate ins and outs of the library search system, rolled their eyes in tandem when I asked a question about the card catalog. Jason had hardly noticed, and when I pointed it out to him, he got impatient, as if I was wasting his time. That's not what you should be worrying about, he said. Not knowing how to reference the tri-county library database quickly in the event of a system crash: nowthat would be a problem.
He was right, of course. He was always right. But I still wasn't looking forward to it. Once I got to the garage, I went to the shelves where my mom kept her work stuff, moving a stack of for sale and model open signs aside to pull out another box of fliers. The front door of the house was open, and I could hear voices drifting over, party sounds, laughing, and glasses clinking.
I hoisted up the box and cut off the overhead light. Then I headed back to the party and bathroom duty. I was passing the garbage cans when someone jumped out at me from the bushes.
Say what you will, but you're never prepared for the surprise attack. It defines the very meaning of taking your breath away: I was gasping. For a second, it was very quiet. A car drove by. Aren't I?
He had a serving platter tucked under his arm. As he got closer he squinted, making me out in the semi-dark. Not me," he said. Now that he was right in front of me, I could see that he was tall and had brown hair that was a little bit too long. He was also strikingly handsome, with the sort of sculpted cheekbones and angular features that you couldn't help but notice, even if you did have a boyfriend.
To me he said, "You okay? My heart was still racing, but I was recovering. He stood there, studying the bush, then stuck his hand right into its center. A second later, he pulled another guy, this one shorter and chunkier but dressed identically, out through the foliage.
He had the same dark eyes and hair, but looked younger. His face was bright red. He reached up and picked a pine needle out of his hair. The older guy nudged him, then nodded toward the fliers. He started to pick them up, his fingers scratching the pavement, as the other guy walked a bit down the driveway, picking up the ones that had slid there. A second later the door swung open. She was pregnant, and was squinting out into the dark with a curious, although somewhat impatient, expression.
He handed them to me. The more they drink, the less they'll notice how long the food is taking. The woman ran her hand over her belly, distracted, then looked back out into the dark.
She turned around, then stuck her head over the side of the rail. So get your butt in here, please, okay? Bert came out from under the deck, organizing the fliers he was holding into a stack, then handed them to me.
He had a chubby face and a wide nose, and his hair was thick and too short, like it had been cut at home. He was watching me so intently, as if he wanted to be sure I understood, that it took me a second to look away.
Then he backed up to the stairs and started up them quickly. When he got to the top, he glanced back down at me. Although I had a feeling he meant it. And then he was gone. When I got inside, my mother was deep in some conversation about zoning with a couple of contractors.
I refreshed the fliers, then directed a man who was a bit stumbly and holding a glass of wine he probably didn't need to the bathroom. I was scanning the living room for stray empty glasses when there was a loud crash from the kitchen.
Everything in the front of the house stopped. The very air. Or so it felt. My mother smiled her way across the room, then put a hand on the small of my back, easing me toward the foyer. Could you go and convey that, please? Then I noticed that the floor was littered with small round objects, some at a standstill, some rolling slowly to the four corners of the room. A little girl in pigtails, who looked to be about two or three, was standing by the sink, fingers in her mouth and wide eyed as several of the marblelike objects moved past her.
Bert, now leafless and looking somewhat composed, breezed in carrying a tray filled with wadded-up napkins and empty glasses. Take the cheese puffs and tell them we're traying the crab cakes up right now. He sidestepped her, heading for the counter, and, unhappy, she plopped down into a sitting position and promptly started wailing. Where's Monica? Delia made an exasperated face. Find a broom and get up these meatballs… and we need to get some more of these cheese puffs in, and Bert needs… what else did you need?
And Wes needs ice. Lucy, please, don't slobber on Mommy… And the ice is… oh, shit, I don't know where the ice is. Where did we put the bags we bought? She had long honey-blonde hair and was slouching as she ambled over to the oven. She pulled it open, a couple of inches at a time, then glanced inside before shutting it again and making her way over to the island, still moving at a snail's pace.
She started scooping up the meatballs into the dustpan as Monica made her way back to the oven, pausing entirely too long to pick up a pot holder on her way.
It was quiet for a second, but something told me this was not my opening. I stayed put, scraping meatball off my shoe. Here I go. We need more servers, by the way. People are grabbing at me like you wouldn't believe.
Putting down the dustpan, Delia moved to the island, grabbing a spatula, and began, with one hand, to load crab cakes onto the plate at lightning speed. Just walk slowly andlook where you're going, and be careful with liquids, please God I'm begging you, okay?
She picked up the tray, adjusted it on her hand, and headed off around the corner, taking her time. Delia watched her go, shaking her head, then turned her attention back to the meatballs, scooping the few remaining into the dustpan and chucking them into the garbage can. Her daughter was still sniffling, and she was talking to her, softly, as she walked to a metal cart by the side door, pulling out a tray covered with Saran Wrap.
As she crossed the room she balanced it precariously on her free hand, her walk becoming a slight waddle. I had never seen anyone so in need of help in my life. Then she smiled. Who are you?
This is my mom's house. I had a feeling she knew what was coming. I took a breath. And to convey that she's—" "Incredibly pissed," she finished for me, nodding.
How many people tried to be part of your life, but you kept them in dark? How many times whe "The best way out is always through. How many times when someone got too close to you, did you push that person away? How many times silence got so loud that you couldn't bear to listen to it any longer? Too many times to count.
There are secrets that we keep safe in our heart, there are things that could hurt the people we love if we let them out, there are friendships lost between the layers of time, and there are people that get to know us better than anyone because they know how to look into our heart.. For all these, there is this book — about broken hearts, and lost dreams, about loneliness, and silent cries, about being too late and second chances, about love in every form we can find it.
And for all those people we need to do one thing: just listen. In this story we meet Annabel - a girl that has lost her old friends, her old life and eventually, herself. When one boy from school, Owen, starts hanging with her and challenging her to put into words her real feelings as they are, the chaos that her life has become seems to get bigger, and the only way for her to make things right is to start being honest with the people around her her mother, her friends, even Owen , and more than that, to be honest with herself.
That's why we have such a strong visceral connection to it, you know? Because a song can take you back instantly to a moment, or a place, or even a person.I wondered if hers was an act, too, or if she really believed this. However, I am very glad This book deserves 4 stars at least. Thanks for the accept! I already knew this was where they took people to tell them the really bad news: that their wait was over, their person was dead.
Dear Sarah. It didn't matter how good my times were, what records I'd planned to break just days before.