Down the Rabbit Hole book cover, Holly raudone.info Author, Holly Madison. Genre, Memoir Nonfiction. Published, June 23, Publisher, Dey Street Books · ISBN · Down the Rabbit Hole: Curious Adventures and Cautionary Tales of a Former Playboy Bunny is. Rate this book See 2 questions about Down the Rabbit Hole Brandi Blunders by Brandi Glanville Down the Rabbit Hole by Holly Madison sTORI Telling. Down the Rabbit Hole and millions of other books are available for instant access . . At 21, small-town Oregon girl Holly Cullen became Holly Madison, Hugh.
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Editorial Reviews. Review. “Fascinating.” (AV Club) “Reads like a celebrity memoir infused with But like Alice's journey into Wonderland, after Holly plunged down the rabbit hole, what seemed like a fairytale life inside the . My only issue with the book how Madison always portrays herself to be this sweet, well-meaning. But like Alice's journey into Wonderland, after Holly plunged down the rabbit hole , of personal empowerment, Down the Rabbit Hole reminds us of the importance of ISBN: ; ISBN ; Imprint: Dey Street Books. 1 girlfriend Holly Madison (who lived in the mansion for nearly eight memoir about her experience in Hef's house, Down the Rabbit Hole, and.
The real villain of this story is not backstabbing opportunistic women, but the man who orchestrated their struggles, and encouraged fighting among them so they would forget who the real enemy was.
But Madison didn't forget, and she's at her best when her writing is full of righteous fury and frustration at Hugh Hefner, the man who kept her a virtual prisoner and destroyed her self-esteem so thoroughly that she contemplated suicide.
Sure, Holly Madison is awful human being, but Hefner is the Dr. Frankenstein, while Madison is merely the monster that all the villagers go after with pitchforks. In conclusion: You're a bad person, I'm glad your entire empire is crumbling, and I hope whatever barely-legal girl you marry next smothers you in your sleep.
View all 71 comments. Aug 10, Petra X rated it it was ok Shelves: I see that all the whores girlfriends are coming out the woodwork and saying just how much they loved Hefner. They all reviled him in the tell-all books of life in the mansion with the old guy you had to screw on a timetable.
I just had to update this with what Kendra said about Holly in today's Twitter fuss view spoiler [May 19th, hide spoiler ]. Kendra who is forthright that living in the house with Hefner was work, unlike the revisionist Holly, said today of Holly, "She wasn't I see that all the whores girlfriends are coming out the woodwork and saying just how much they loved Hefner. Kendra who is forthright that living in the house with Hefner was work, unlike the revisionist Holly, said today of Holly, "She wasn't in fear with that dick in her ass for a paycheck, 'That bitch is in fear now knowing so many of us saw her doing some nasty shit.
She's embarrassed and in shame. She was the clean up girl. Holly's job was to get Hef hard again and clean him up with her mouth. Holly had to "clean up" Hefner in front of five girls so yeah, I could see that she's embarrassed about that extremely sex worker-like, un-girlfriend like behaviour.
Funny shit though! Holly, Izabella , Kendra and the other four girls all called themselves "girlfriends". Well I suppose escort, whore or scrubber didn't appeal to them or Hugh Hefner. Hef likes to be known as the ultimate ladies man so of course he couldn't be seen to pay for sex.
So his private brothel was known collectively as 'the girlfriends' and he didn't pay them, he gave them a 'clothing allowance' and paid for all and any beauty enhancements, nails to plastic surgery.
In the Playboy house there was a recruiter for a high-class whore agency. Holly herself says she never went that route, but lots of the girls did. Some who got found out by Hef were thrown out of the house. Others I suppose just realised it was less work for more money flying out to some Arab in Turkey for the night and left.
Then there was the Heidi Fleiss connection. All these girls, Holly included, had all had jobs in the 'entertainment' industry or were prepared to strip naked to pose for men's wanking material in Playboy. It doesn't matter how you dress it up, this is selling sex for money.
I don't think that's wrong or immoral, I just don't like hearing of an elegant silver implement for tilling the fair earth when what is meant is a shovel for digging up potatoes! In her book, Bunny Tales: Behind Closed Doors at the Playboy Mansion , Izabella details exactly what the duties of these whores were she says Holly was chief nipple-sucker in bed.
She didn't like Holly, characterised as cold, manipulative and very focused on Hef being her stepping stone to fame. Holly, despite some clever ghost-writing, did nothing to change that view of herself.
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Holly characterises Izabella and the other girls as 'Mean Girls'. Holly says, " James who is equally self-deluded had a law degree.
Holly worked hard to become the chief girlfriend and bedroom-sharer of Hef.
So did she become a girlfriend? She says she was shy, 'a shrinking violet', who deluded herself into believing she was in love with Hef. A man who was as old as her grandfather, had sex with six other women at the same time and treated her so much like an object he ripped her apart for wearing red lipstick and cutting her hair.
All the girls were rapaciously greedy clones, all long-haired blondes with boob and nose jobs wearing trashy outfits. I don't really know why he needed more than one and some mirrors. She elbowed everyone out of the way and classes all Hef's previous main girlfriends as, 'two-faced manipulators'.
Takes one to know one sweetheart: Everyone else, with the exception of Bridget Maquardt who never achieved the smallest measure of success after leaving the house, she slags off. She rips apart Hef who actually gave her training and a job directing photo shoots for Playboy. She hates all the other girls and can't understand why they don't like her. She especially hates Kendra.
In fact, Holly only likes people who do things for her. After 7 years in the house she is bored, has substantial savings and is looking to strike out on her own. She meets Criss Angel and he offers her love, marriage and the opportunity to leave the house for his own, so she does. He gets her on her red carpets, introduces her to people, but all of this is not because he is proud of his new girlfriend and showing her off, nope it is only for the publicity she can bring to him.
Hef's ex-whore whom no-one has any respect for? Actually this is a point she belabours at length. That she is more than Hef's ex, more than a nude Playboy model, more than the vacuous blonde she played on Girls Next Door which I never saw. Or I did but only like flicking through channels when I was in the US once.
She really wants to forge her own identity and she, as much now as before she asked Hefner if she could move into the house, wants fame and money. She wants her own tv show. This is her focus, fame. So she says that Criss Angel who not being able to take her anymore offers her a ticket home to her parents and stores her goods for her until she can decide what she wants to do.
Eventually she gets a Vegas show of her own, on the strength of being Hef's ex she does not see this , one where a lot of the reviews say things like, "If you EVER want to see the poster girl for dumb vacuous blonde with zero stage presence but, granted, nice boobs , google Holly Madison. My god WHAT was Hugh thinking? Criss is with me now. Stop texting him. You are disgusting. You are in a burlesque show because you can't do anything else.
You used an old man to get to the B-list. Criss told me the real reason you guys broke up. If I had your reputation I would be on anti-depressants too.
You are the biggest running joke around here. You got used. Lose this number. Th ey were freely available in the Mansion, Hefner kept some in his pockets even. Anyway to make things a bit more brief, Holly compares herself to Marilyn Monroe. She gets cameo roles in Hefner's show, hates his new no. Gets her own show but doesn't want to be associated with Playboy in any way as she now thinks she is famous in her own right. She cannot stand not being the no.
Kendra who isn't quite such a bitch says in an interview, "We've all found our own little roads to go and that's just the way it goes.
She's such a bundle of cliches is Holly. Pot calling the kettle etc So she tweets Kendra, "I decided to text her how I truly felt; that she was a coward and that she tried to act like the "real" girl on TV, but she's the fakest person I've ever met.
I just don't like it when people think we are friends. We were never friends. It was all just work. Anyway, it all ends happily ever after when Holly meets a smart, funny, really rich man and within months she is pregnant, gives up her show and moves in with him. Funny how these things go, isn't it? Not one ever to lose an opportunity for tv time and fame, she does a deal with E!
They made me feel like they had my back But if they don't, I'm sure there will be a tv special, a National Enquirer exc lusive and a book telling us how terrible it was The book is quite well written by her "collaborator" is that what they call ghost writers these days? Leslie Bruce. It is a pretty much enjoyable story of a successful gold-digger and whore who protests she wants to be famous in her own right and never hear "Playboy" again but without it, she would just have been the tall, not-terribly pretty girl from Alaska called Holly Cullen with a great body and a desire to make money from it, and we'd never have heard of her.
Sorry this review is so long, I enjoyed writing it but editing Well truthfully, not at all. You know what I'd really like? I'd like to have a completely off-the-record, no phones coffee with Leslie Bruce and hear what she really thinks of Holly. View all 70 comments. What can I say? I was curious. View all 21 comments. My mind is whirling with so many thoughts right now that I can't even keep track of what I'm thinking as I'm thinking it because another thought forms This book did that to me!
So, I don't normally read biographies or nonfiction. I have, in the past, just not often. However, as soon as I heard about this book I had to read it. I loved watching their bubbly personalities. I can't count how many times I giggled as something played My mind is whirling with so many thoughts right now that I can't even keep track of what I'm thinking as I'm thinking it because another thought forms I can't count how many times I giggled as something played out onscreen.
Again I will be honest when I say that I thought Holly was the girlfriend that truly cared even a smidgen about Hef. So reading this was extremely eye-opening. I couldn't put it down once I started and as soon as I finished I logged online to see what other readers were feeling after reading and I was shocked! Readers or probably just commenters on stories across the internet are shaming Holly for the decisions she made in the past. They are shaming her for feeling the way she felt in the past and the way she feels now.
And it's not right. We don't know what truly happened in that mansion. Everyone will have their own perspective on events and that's okay. Everyone will feel in their own way and again that's okay.
Something my husband always tells me is, "Don't be sorry for how you feel. Feelings bubble up subconsciously, we don't force them unless we are acting. She isn't wrong for how she feels. I'm not defending her or Hef or any of the other girlfriends mentioned in the book, but I will say this: If Holly truly felt what she wrote in the book Holly, I am happy for you now. I wish you the best. I don't wish any form of abuse on anyone, whether sexual, verbal, emotional or physical.
A relationship is a mutual dance. It's give and take. It's being there for someone when they need help and having someone be there for you when you need help. It's knowing that you are loved and safe to be yourself and vice versa. What was written in this novel was not a relationship. As for those that are criticizing her because she pursued him and she knew what she was in for Does anyone ever really see abuse coming? NO, because abusers are smart. They are charming, they hide it and they reel you in.
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For those criticizing her for "biting the hand that feeds her after she made the decision to date a man old enough to be her grandfather in exchange for money" Have you even read the book?
And have you ever made a decision that you regretted later on? Or are you a saint? As I stated above, we can't be sure what happened because we weren't there. But what we can take from this book is we shouldn't ever allow anyone to strip us of our self-worth no matter who that person is or how much we feel we owe someone.
We should never settle for less than we deserve. We should always strive to reach our goals no matter who stands in our way and we should never give up.
If you read this novel and didn't get that from it, you went in biased and I hope you take a second look at it with an open mind and an open heart.
View all 14 comments. Jul 30, Ashley Brooks rated it did not like it Shelves: Here's the tl;dr version: Also I want to be an actress, but I'm too lazy to pursue it the traditional way like More whining.
More "holier than thou" speeches about the "other girls. I simply cannot sympathize with this girl. For all her bragging about how intelligent she is, I find myself lacking the ability to write a coherent review after reading this hot mess. View all 7 comments. No shame. This shit is juicy. View all 4 comments. I was counting down the days until this audibook would be mine. It did not disappoint more on my rating in a little bit. At the end, she acknowledges there was a a collaborator and this is the best example I can think of a collaborator's contribution for a celebrity memoir.
The contribution is seamless; it sounds like Madison's voice and experienc 3. The contribution is seamless; it sounds like Madison's voice and experiences and not a heavy-handed addition. It is polished and not painfully bad writing common with celebrity memoirs.
Madison does not hold back. There are a lot of jabs thrown in this book and there are a few people who will be PISSED or are already pissed about the shit-talking in this book. I would've wished for more sordid bedroom details but I'm obviously a pervert.
However, Madison plays the victim the entire book. Everything is everyone else's fault Hef, the mean girls in the mansion, producers, Criss Angel etc. I look for that self-reflection as a sign of a good memoir and I found it lacking here. That's why I knocked it down a half-star since this is a solid 4 star read.
Madison does a decent job narrating. She never sounds like she's reading and she does voices. Her impersonation of Hef, though not spot on, was perfection. She tries for an English accent for the quotes from Alice in Wonderland and bless her heart for trying. If you're a fan of her or the show, I definitely recommend it. View all 6 comments.
Dec 31, Lola rated it liked it Shelves: View all 3 comments. Jun 24, Kate rated it did not like it.
I read this book because watching The Girls Next Door was a guilty pleasure of mine. It was light, funny, and unusual. I, like I assume most readers of this book, was curious. First of all, this book is poorly written.
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The amount of parentheses and exclamation marks is excessive. Sometimes thoughts are in italics, other times in quotations. The phrases "to be honest," or "honestly" are overused. The entire book is supposed to be an honest opinion or story, so I don't understand why these phrases I read this book because watching The Girls Next Door was a guilty pleasure of mine.
The entire book is supposed to be an honest opinion or story, so I don't understand why these phrases require such frequent use.
I could go on and on about this aspect. Also, Ms Madison doesn't take much of the blame for the dissolution of any of the friendships or relationships she discusses.
She often "feels sorry" for the people around her, then delves into a description of her low self-esteem. She has somehow combined superiority with a victim mentality. Nothing is ever her fault, she tries her hardest, and that makes her better than you. I have nothing to say about the revelations she made about the mansion, Playboy, or Mr Hefner, besides the fact that if she said it once in this book, she said it a hundred times.
Everyone makes mistakes in their youth. At first, we may not seem them as big mistakes. Then they're the worst thing that's ever happened to us. Finally we figure out that the truth is somewhere in between. It seems like Ms Madison is still in that second phase.
I hope that writing this book was cathartic.
But if she writes another one, I will not be reading it. Jul 24, Neja rated it really liked it Shelves: Well, well, well, who knew?! I know you might see this book as a silly book, but I liked it, because I felt that Holly was really honest when she wrote it. Everything about Hef is already disgusting but knowing that he is not even nice, he is not even the nice grandpa he seemed on the "The Girls Next Door"??!!
I am glad she spilled the tea about everything! I have all of the box sets accept for the last one with the new girls. Bridget and Holly my favorites but it took me awhile to get to like Kendra, she was young and annoying at the time, most of us are when we are that young: I loved Holly and I bought her socks she sold at the time, the freaking tube socks I kept trying to find forever. Damn, I should have took a pic of them on since I still have them: Every time I watched the show it was so much fun when the girls got to do things on their own, or have fun around the house without Hef involved.
It seemed to me that a lot of times in the shots with Hef, everyone had smiles that weren't always genuine and I'm guessing if he was this strict man, I wouldn't have a smile either. I'm guessing you would have to get the multitudes of women drunk or on some kind of drugs to get them to have sex with you. Uggg, moving on, just the thought makes me sick. I thought the book was great, it took me back to the days of watching the show and I think I will have to sit down and have a marathon now.
There are a lot of people that love and hate the book. I don't see anything wrong with it, I felt the same way about a lot of things that were said, but that's my opinion and I don't care what anyone else thinks ;- I have read other books where people are in some nasty situations and everyone asked them, "Why didn't you just leave?
Shit just happens. Just no!!! And whether I like a person or not, I'm not going to judge them when they have issues or mental problems etc. You do what you feel like you can do when you can. I loved that Mary stayed friends with Holly, well all of the girls I'm sure and I was so sad to hear of her passing from cancer. But, I'm glad that Holly found her dream, not many of us can do that. She seems to have a great husband and a daughter and a son on the way: Now, I wish Bridget would put out her own book!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
View 2 comments. Jun 22, Aki rated it it was ok. I couldn't quite get past the "woe is me" cry of despair everytime she was bullied by the other girls in the mansion when you could turn the page and next she would be gloating about how she and Bridget were scheming to get those girls kicked out of the house.
The last quarter picked up when she finally moved out, escaped her abusive relationships, and really started to discover herself. Her fairy tale ending was heart warming and there were a couple important messages to young women that were unfortunately obscured by tacky drama.
I grew weary of the "poor-little-me" routine.
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Get over it girl. You asked to move into the Playboy mansion because you were virtually homeless. You were given an allowance,lavish gifts,cars,etc.
Now you have the unmitigated gall to write a tell all and place yourself in the role of the victim. It became a whiney trope about how horrible her life in the mansion was,how her confidence was eroded,how awful Hef was to her,how all of the other girls were "mean girls".
Where are the violins. I felt this book was a way to payback anyone who has ever slighted her. I have absolutely no judgement about her choices,you were an adult,my problem is the lack of responsibility for said choices. I wouldn't recommend this to anyone. View all 5 comments. This review has been hidden because it contains spoilers. To view it, click here. This is an incredibly important book.
However, this book isn't about the glories of bunny life. It's a book about the actuality of bunny life. You think everyone's so perfect and loves how they look? Holly points out the creepiness behind the cookie cutter image and very low ages that all of Hefner's girlfriends were pushed towards, and talks abo This is an incredibly important book.
Holly points out the creepiness behind the cookie cutter image and very low ages that all of Hefner's girlfriends were pushed towards, and talks about the body dysmorphic issues that arise when you are living in a world where the idealization of a very particular body type and look are pushed so hard. You think life in the mansion is carefree and like a wonderful sorority?
Holly talks about the strict rules like a 9pm curfew for full fledged adults , infighting largely incited by drama queen Hefner himself and consistent emotional abuse from Hefner. It may seem trivial, but it truly destroys your feeling of self worth when someone does customary things like they love you and says they love, but then intimidates, bullies and controls you.
Or even worse, ignores you. So why didn't Holly just leave? She's an adult, right? Holly also talks about the shitty situations some people can be in that make them think they cannot get out of their personal hell. This is an important book, and one I would readily give to anyone who is living a life they want to get out of, but doesn't think they can.
It will help them recognize their situation and start thinking about how they can not just separate themselves from it, but also thrive once they are free. Oct 06, Vanessa rated it liked it. In honesty I wasn 3. View all 17 comments. I admit it. I loved The Girls Next Door. Their lives seemed so fun, so carefree.
I loved all three girls, and especially Holly, who seemed genuine, classy, and had a good head on her shoulders. I felt when she left the show it was, again, a classy move on her part. She realized she was never getting children or a marriage out of the relationship and moved on. I respected that. So, it was rather surprising to see her write a tell-all book with the intention of 'telling her own story' and then spe I admit it. So, it was rather surprising to see her write a tell-all book with the intention of 'telling her own story' and then spending a huge amount of time defaming her own character.
Let me save you the pain and loss of brain cells and give you the rundown of what Holly Madison wants you to know. It appeared that Hef liked to collect more than just women.
Ceiling-high piles of videotapes, stuffed animals, art, and gifts littered the room. It was like an episode of Hoarders. But perhaps in his case it would be more appropriately titled Whore-ders. Advertisement This passage is essentially the book in microcosm.
Everything is there: the casual and not-so-casual slut shaming, the depiction of the Playboy mansion as a shimmering palace from the outside but a hellhole on the inside, the air of smug superiority as well as the self-satisfied, none-too-clever wordplay.
But these were more like gold spray-painted handcuffs full of rust, since her glamorous life was oddly short on money, even if it was long on luxury and indulgences. Playboy does, and Hefner merely rents it. Madison was so disturbed by their awful behavior that she felt duty-bound to write an unrelentingly mean-spirited book where she constantly derides them as slutty, cheap, greedy, mercenary, stupid, tacky, and wrong.
Also actual, literal whores. She suggests that some of the other women are trying to sneak crystal meth into the mansion as well. The author tries to convince herself, and by extension the reader, that at various points in her relationship with Hefner, she genuinely loved him and wanted to be his wife and only partner. In Down The Rabbit Hole, Hefner is condescending, sexist, and patronizing at best and emotionally abusive at worst. In a shocking turn of events, the man with the Hot Topic aesthetic turns out to be an insanely demanding, narcissistic maniac as well.
She is a millionaire, she assures us, and has an amazing, age-appropriate husband and baby while Hefner and his empire flounder.It will help them recognize their situation and start thinking about how they can not just separate themselves from it, but also thrive once they are free. If Ms. Teresa Giudice. But when she eventually tried to leave, Hef attempted to bribe her to stay with his will. She took advantage of her foot in the door at the playboy mansion and asked Hef if she could move in.
But if she writes another one, I will not be reading it. It may seem trivial, but it truly destroys your feeling of self worth when someone does customary things like they love you and says they love, but then intimidates, bullies and controls you. Paula Hawkins.